These below) are the words of a song by 80s band Depeche Mode - not their most famous, or even my favourite at the time, but the words sum up, better than I could ever explain, the emotions that I was going through, especially at the start of the journey!!
I suggest you listen to it as hearing it sing is even more poignant than the words just being shown in written format"!!
SOMEBODY, BY DEPECHE MODE
I want somebody to share, Share the rest of my life, Share my innermost thoughts, Know my intimate details
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Someone who'll stand by my side, And give me support, And in return, She'll get my support
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She will listen to me, When I want to speak, About the world we live in, And life in general
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Though my views may be wrong, They may even be perverted, She'll hear me out, And won't easily be converted, To my way of thinking
In fact, she'll often disagree, But at the end of it all, She will understand me
I want somebody who cares, For me passionately, With every thought, And with every breath
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Someone who'll help me see things, In a different light, All the things I detest, I will almost like
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I don't want to be tied, To anyone's strings, I'm carefully trying to stay clear, Of those things
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But when I'm asleep, I want somebody, Who will put their arms around me, And kiss me tenderly
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Though things like this, Make me sick
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In a case like this, I'll get away with it
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And in a place like this, I'll get away with it